This is a difficult thing for me to express. Something that's been a part of me for so long and I think hiding it has contributed to my depression. I am bi-curious and have known for about half my life already. I for a long time hid this part of me even from myself. At 18 years old I did have an "under the influence" experience with a friend and to this day I have never forgotten the slightest moment of it.
I can't explain as to why I have hidden this part of me. My mom is a lesbian and I have always been told to do and feel what makes me happy. I hope to find out one day why I have denied this part of me.
For about seven months now my husband knows I am, which has helped (and of course he is intrigued.) Something I have decided for myself is to no longer hide this part of me. I instead want to foster it, which is no easy task. Where exactly do I start to foster it? I'm guessing here is a start.
I have come to realize that no matter the aspect, we shouldn't hide a part of who we are. People who truly love us will not care what we are afraid to show or express. If they shun you for a part of who you are, then they aren't worth your love and their love is not strong enough to accept you.